Goddamn.

Again.

I have class in HOURS. I am still not allowed to go to sleep. I comment at 1:00 AM, "So, Peter, are you worried about your classes at all? What time are you going in in the morning? My first class is at 9:00, so I want to be up at 7:00."

But....

Peter and Friend do not stop playing their game.

I tried being a bit more overt, and at around 2:00 AM it was agreed that Ryan and Peter would wind down their gaming. It's now 3:30 AM.

I am still waiting. Because they LEFT. And then came BACK. To EAT.

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I hate my life.

I'm supposed to start school on Monday, but I know I'm going to fail. I'm going to fail because I'm staying up until between 4 and 8 AM every damned day.

Why do I do it?

Because I'm sleeping in a friend's living room. And he likes to play video games on his computer all the time.

I realize that this is charity, and I shouldn't be upset -- being homeless otherwise.

But I need certain things to live, and since I don't have my own room, I'm going to have to get some goddamned way to get the fucking privelage to sleep at reasonable hours, or for at least more than three or four a single goddamned fucking day. I HATE THIS!

Why does Peter tell me I can say when I want to go to sleep if he continually ignores my reminders about some of us having school and trying to get reasonable schedules? Why does he invite people over SPECIFICALLY TO PLAY VIDEO GAMES AFTER ONE AM?

Oh, fuck it.

Who am I kidding? I'm overstepping my welcome here and he's just trying to be subtle.

So ... I'm going to guess that I'm pretty much going to vanish off the internet for a good long while again. I'm looking into homeless shelters and programs for no-income students -- that kind of thing. Fuck.

I miss sleep! 0 have shared the love

 
Kristen died in October. She ODed on Methadone.

I just found out today. Janna, Kristen's mother, only just recently managed to tell my mother. Kristen is survived by her daughter Brenna, who is 7 months old now.

Kristen was a childhood friend.

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I'm back.

But first, to explain where I went? I guess I kind of began to shut down variously on different levels when Sterling passed away. It was a difficult point in my life, and one which was quickly followed by many others, not that it hadn't also been preceeded by a handful of difficulties.

So. In the interrum, I have lost my job with Sony (I don't regret it, though -- the commute was atrocious). I have yet to get my first unemployment check (which will also be my confirmation that I was approved -- no paperwork letting me know otherwise has arrived yet). My old apartment complex has decided that I owe them for a month I didn't stay there, and for about 500$ in repairs aside.

Bitches.

I've got no money and a lot of angry collectors at me ... I'm couchsurfing right now, and am registered for college (Mission -- Santa Clara. Decent community college, nothing spectacular, but I like it and it's close), and have chosen a major. English, tending towards investigative journalism, and maybe (it's a few more credits) mythology. My electives will all be classes on networking and probably any *nix courses they offer.

So I've finally got a plan, and am willing to stick it through. I just hope I didn't wait too long.

Anyway. Anyone who's e-mailed me since March of '05? I'm sorry -- I'm starting to catch up. I want a clean inbox by Sunday, and then I'll try and put together a few more pieces of my life.

At least my muse is still strong. New year, new hope! 0 have shared the love