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Wednesday, October 22, 2008
It's weird looking at this whole thing - and realising that I haven't written anything here for the last couple years. I'm kinda . . . sad about it. It's interesting reading what I've previously written - because I remember a lot of things I'd not thought about in a long time. Things like Sue Chipperfield, for instance. And I think, in the last few years, there's been a lot of little things that I've forgotten, and now may never remember. I think I should write some notes down; write about what I've been doing before it's gone forever.
Well . . . I figured I'd toss this up here again, because all told, I have a lot to talk about these days - and I kinda miss the blog. I keep wondering about the possible consequences for speaking my mind, but . . . fuck it. Anyway. I find it gets very hard to start things again after a long time of not. Momentum is a pain in the ass - most recently with TDAT. I like that game, but I don't feel like posting . . . then when I think about the game, I feel guilty for not posting and . . . don't want to post. Until I eventually realise that and stop being a dickhead. The blog? Similar. Me occasionally getting sulky at some points - like this morning? Also similar. I really am still pretty childish about certain things. Tuesday, October 11, 2005
It -has- been a while . . . I'll probably say something more when I get around to it, but there's two things of note. Firstly, the reason I kinda stopped and the reason I started again. I stopped because blogging becomes less . . . easy . . . when negative consequences ensue from it. I decided I may as well post something again because . . . when it comes down to it, I don't care -that- much these days. :) And I suppose the second thing of note is what's bothering me at the moment . . . which is pretty simple: I really hate it when I turn out not to have quite the centered perspective on things that I thought I did. Wednesday, December 15, 2004
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World of Warcraft Post. Be warned. -- I like this game. I like this game a LOT. It's easy to get into, it's addictive, it's fun, there's a lot of stuff to explore, there's cool people to play with . . . what more could I want in a game? So yes, I'm pretty thoroughly addicted, and will probably remain so for a long time. Not since TDAT has a game sucked up so much of my attention and free time. This game is outright -cool-. That said. Drahma. There have been two major drahma issues of late. -- So. First issue, the loot issue. Kudos, Cy; I appreciate your turning around a bit on that issue. Blackfathom was fun, I'll have to link up with you and IY again sometime. -- Second issue, the Level issue. Um. I'm really feeling like I'm being sniped at. I can take a bit of a joke, and I really do try. But . . . I'm starting to fray. I'm starting to get paranoid and reading things into people's comments that aren't there. OK, onto the actual issue. Yeah, I know I said I was going to stop playing my main, or slow down with my main, after I did the Deadmines. And at the time, I meant it. So I started levelling a couple of my alts . . . but except for the time when I was playing with some friends, it was a grind. It was a chore. It was not fun. And so I stopped and went back to my mage, where I can explore, blow things up, and generally have a large number of people to group with and talk to. I could stop playing my main for a week - or the entire game for a week - and let people catch up. There are three possible ways this could end up, as I see it. (A) I get pissed off and sullen about the whole thing and just sour on the game. (B) I'm so happy that I can finally get back to having fun that I play even more and leave most of you behind again in two days. (C) I end up getting addicted to playing one of my alts, instead, and end up the wrong level to play with you all anyway. No, really. I've tried this sort of thing before. I know it's petty, but this is how my mind works . . . . . . sure, I could apply some self-discipline. But I won't. If I have to force myself to do something, where's the point in playing a game? This is the real problem. I have fun playing Kerasyn, my main. I play with people. If someone wants to make a low-level alt, or play with one of my low-level alts, ask me! I'm happy to do that! That is the entire reason Kiska and Aske exist right now. But I won't stop playing my main character as my primary. I'm having FUN with my main character. Grinding an alt up by myself would be boring. This is a game. Boring is not fun. So I won't do it. If anyone really wants to play with me, nothing stops you from creating an alt as well. I will happily join you! Hell, if we play enough, we *will* start getting to high levels. But just 'drop your main and do something else for a while'? I'm sorry . . . but no. I'm here to have fun . . . I'm not here to sit there watching for a week before I'm allowed to have fun. And if the alt suggestion doesn't appeal to you at all, perhaps that explains why dropping my main doesn't appeal to me. -- How sad. World of Warcraft got a longer post than somebody dying. I mean - I hadn't seen her in a good couple of years . . . but still. It's sad. -- Current State:  Saturday, December 11, 2004
Sue Chipperfield died a few days ago. I'm not precisely sure when.
Nobody reading this would know her, but she was a nice lady. This is less here to inform anyone reading my blog . . . and more here to remind myself when I read through this again, as I am wont to do sometimes. I use this for my own reference, too. :p Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Hm.
Le sigh. This entire divorce proceeding is enough to make me shake my head in disbelief. I mean, I've seen those two be unreasonable before, but . . . gah. I don't want to know the reasoning behind some of their actions. They probably have good, sound reasons for what they do, or they can explain just why they're doing it, but I really don't care. Is it *that hard* to be at least semi-amicable? And yes, it really does take two people to have a fight. Gah. -- Woo! World of Warcraft is teh AWESOMEZ. AWESOME. AWESOME. I MUST PLAY MORE. When it's released. It's very cool, though, I'm looking forward to it. My experience with the beta has me all but salivating. Also, the Sims 2 is actually really addictive. Dammit. ><; -- Oh, and I got a raise at work! Wooooo! I'm still paid a pittance, but it's an improvement! :D Friday, October 15, 2004
Well.
I was sorta hoping my parents would manage to handle their divorce . . . well, without going to court. It looks like that's no longer going to be possible, and I'm . . . angry? Furious? Intensely disappointed? Because this came right out of the blue, and I can only see one person to blame. It should surprise me, but it doesn't. I am . . . disappointed. I'm also not sure what to do. I mean, I probably shouldn't get involved. I really shouldn't. What's just happened is idiotic, and quite frankly I shouldn't even be aware of it, but I am. So should I admit that I know what's going on and try to find out just *why* the offending party felt it necessary to do this? I know that I probably shouldn't get involved and that putting my nose in will probably cause more harm than good, but . . . I don't want to sit on the sidelines and see a legal battle take place because of one person's apparent decision that they want some petty vengeance. Especially when they'd been claiming it was moderately amicable right up to that point . . . I think I understand that motivation a little, and probably better than either of them would suspect I do, but that doesn't make it any less wrong. -- Current State: 
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